history maker!!

ok so when we got there we went to this one preaching think with amanda fulk and that was realy good it was hard cause like you had to write things you think adout your slef that were bad and like i had so many of them but when it came to writeing good things i had one and i was like wow and so we had to ripe up th bad stuff and throw them away and ya so we did that and than we went to me husbands[leeland]consert it was so good thats was liek so hard though cause we had to deal with the things that we put before god like if we have stuff that it stoping us form him and i new that i did but i dident want to deal with it so i new it was time when i was there so like if kim wasent there i would have die she was so good like she dident evan have to say anything and i could just feel godslove through her it was so good and so we we there for a while....but finaly it was ok cause i realy than new that i could lean on god more than anyone....that was only one of the amazing nights there ill tell you the other onec to but i just want you all to no what i was realy looking for when i went there.........ok so mine and god relationship was hard cause i would only want him when i was in trouble or hated the world and so i was realy just stuck and no matter what people said i dident care i was just like well i want him to show me his love and show me him so i was just going there to feel god but trust me its more than that like the frist night i could just feel a buring inside me for more off him and i was just like when i go there i will realy no if he is real but i got way more than i expected and it was amazing.....ok so there was this speaker named reggy and he was like thie huge football player lik imagen this huge guy that plays foot ball lik come on ok so he was preaching one night and he was like talking and he was like ok any one who had condam birthcontrol and are done with it like they no its wrong and they dont want it they want god they dont want o hva eot true to that for love come tthrow it on the stage so lik loads of peeps came and he got them all to stand in the middle and than he did if you have attenmtied suicied or have thought adout it or anything come stand in the middle than he got people who have drung or anything like that com through them on the stage so there was all this crap on the stage and it was just amaxzong and those people went in the middle but befor ethat ll happened he got the youth pastors to go on one side of the stage and there wifes on the other and when he said go they all just grabbed the kidds and just prayed for them like they were there own kids they just huged them and took so much care of them and we all just prayed over the kid and like i was praying so hard because i could remember when i wanted to die and i was getting hurt by some guy i thought i love and i remeber the drungs and i was like i was one fo those kids and now im at a place were i can halp them so i was just praying harder than ever like i felt like i couldent use word to pray to god adout them i was just lost for word and i was like crying and everything and i just could feel god on me and him just in that place just cryign to see his children like thatit was so amaing....so ya thats was so good like i just felt diffrent when i came home like i had peace in me and like evan with my antie and unkle i just flet there love and everythinng and i just loved it and like i wasent afraid to show that he is my father and i love him and will live for him and like it was just amazing but ya this is long so im going but i hope you enjoy it
love
alysha

lauren

ok so i no i havent posted in a while but i have benn bust its hard work being a teenager you have a soical life to you no and pulse you have to try and keep on top of your grades weell now thats is a hard one lol i hav been trying to get bs in science and soicals and omg what a job thats it and i hate both of those classes but still i have to try. well so ya there is like nothening exiting in my life right now realy its boreing omg i guessed rmemberd somthing ok so all of you who dont no i go to the christan school and omg we have chaple right and we get diffrent people to come and preach and stufff and OMG GUESS WHO CAME????????? HEATHER CLARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg its was s amazing i was like totaly amsazied and she was so good she sang and than preached and wow i love her than after we went and taalk to her and omg im still amazied i cant belive i for got that lol well i have to go to sleep now but i bet your all going to come to chaple now arent you i can see the sadness that you dident get to meet her in your eyes

weell i love you all
suckkkerrrsss
hahah
alysha

streesss

kk so i dont realy want to go into detal but i duno latly i have been realy stressed and alot of my firends think im ditching them and im not just talking to you cause there is more than that one and im realy soryrry and i dont no why i cant talk its just makes me evan madder adn im just realy up set and im sorry if i hav effened you and i hope you can forgive me and i promise i will be back to normal soo i hope well than to all
love
alysha

costco

Me and Arryn<333

ok so me and arryn havent realy been hanging out as much as we uasly do and to tell you the truth hated it when it first happened but no i no we have other people in our lives.well i just wanted to tell everyone adout my day today ok lol
well i woke up and went to timmys in the morning lol (every friday)and so that was all god went to school but today i was very exited cause me and arryn we going to hang out than go to the fair together so she come over after school and we dident want to go to the fair to early so we went to costco got love it <33 and we ate it was realy good exept the hole time we were eating arryn was like what a greese fest and i was like ok we got it lol and so after i felt realy sick and so than we were all going to go grocery shopping which was quite fun we dident want to go with my aunty and unkle so we went to find couches to sleep on but stupid costco dident have any out (i should complain)and so we ran around on the costco cars for a while like those big orange once and that was funn til my aunty saw ua and told us to get off so than we went and found a picnic table and sat there for a while and we started to play james bond and spy on my aunty and unkle remember we are in costco so we were kinda rollling on the floor and than umm my old french teacher walked by and was laughing at us lol ya it was great and so we spyed on them some more than we left and we were yelling that they were stalking us lol and so ya than we went to the fair more funn time lol well thats only some of the good time in COSTCO lol
love all
alysha

as mush as i miss her and love her i cant keep lettng her in and out of my life i have to all ready have enugh people who do that and i can let you be one of them so this is were you are when you are ready i will be waiting but untill then plaese stop hurting everyone and just live you life and when your ready to change i will be there untill then good bi and this is for good i love you forever no matter how bad you mess up but there has to be bounrys and your the gate you need helpp that no one can get for you unless you want to change and right now i no you dont so be safe and i love you good bi

only god can help her now and its up to him to work with her so god here im giving you all the pain and hurt she has coused me and im ready to start over when she is

god bless

love

alysha

hurts

kk so my life is realy good right now my parents ya they have there problems but thats them but tonight me and my firend arryn went for a walk to the park and she just got back from
guatemala and she has chnaged so much its like god has touched her heart and made her a nw person but anyways with my story so me and arryn are realy close we consider eachother sister right so we were swing and just talking adout chnage and god and stuff when she satrted to ask me adout why would god put us on this eath and why would h put us through pain just liek questions like that and if you dont me these last couple of months i have bee realy trying to uderstand god and and were i stand with him and my self and it wa sliek a me flash back cause its like thats what i ask tennille and so i was tellign her what tennille told me adout how god has a plan for us and stuff right and it realy got me thinking adou tmy own life and i started to cry i dident no why and liek i dident understand cause like i felt like i new god but i dont no if i was just telling my slf that or what so i was just crying and good thing it was dark so that i dident haave to explain why i was crying but we just kept talking adout it and she just dident understand and like i felt like that way to and than i satrted to think how stong is my relationship with god in the first place like i no im not in the same spot i was before but how much i have i real chnaged like i no god is there and that he die for us and everything but i feel like i need more and liek that im nto giveing enuf and so trust me today wasent my day i was haveing the worst day i spazed on so many people mostly my auny and like i just couldent take it so i was trying to get someone close to me to do somthing for me cause i just wanted what they had but i new i shouldent but i was just not have a good day and i juts miss my sister so much and i was just stressed and i have a bg test the next day and ya it wasent good and like i new thats when i should off runed to go and just let him hav it but i dident and like i just no that i was more but to m i just dont no how to get it lik i just feel like its time for me to grow stronger but i also no i dont no if i am ready to give him my all an everthing i am and have cause part off me wants to stay in my past and just do that but than part of my is so thirsty for god but all i no right now it i just need to pray nad give it to him and just stop trying to stop my self from crying cause its time i just give it all to him


i no this is all scatered and stuff and that i cant spell ad im sorry but i kinda just let it go and just wrote

alysha

church

kk so i no this is realy short and junk but i just wanted to say that i ove this song and i no i nee fto post adout vancover but i am so burned out its crazy and i have school tomorow sso i no i will be up all night if i right a blog i just wanted to say i love this song i stole it from the church in abby lol heres the lericas

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing
For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just
Chorus:At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered
What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified
You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled Chorus:In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness(2x’s)Chorus

sleep were are you

kk so im in vancover with the denbrabers and im haveing so much funn and junk but the nights i would say have to be the worst part well im on my spring break and stuff right and i have been staying up late and than sleeping in till late and it was fun for a while now i just want my normal rutine i dont no how tennillle dose this all the time but none the less i had to wake up at 9 this moring and i dident fall asleep till 3:30 so durning those hours when i was lying in my bed trying to sleep but couldent and was dieing for lauren who was sleeping next to me to wake up so texted tennille i thought she would be awake well she was but looks like i was the one that was preventing her from her sleep so i felt bad and she told me to read but the problem was that there was no light to read so that was out of the ? so i just layed there until i fianly fell asleep and which that night dident help my sleeping at all but since i woke up so early to go shopping i hope i will be tired tonight!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!<33

kk so its my birthday and i have been 14 for a hour and a half its 1:35 [i cant sleep]
so my birthdays arent realy i thing i look forward to i hate them lol to be truthfull cause
1.the day of my grampa funarle
2.all my family crap happens around my brithday
3.i cant rememder the last birthday my dad was at

so ya you could say its not my favorote day but this year im realy happy adout me birthday because im going to vancover today anyway with my bestfriend my brother there sister aunty leanne and len lol i love that family and i cant wait to go. me and lauren have been on a road trip together before when we like first met and it was so fun and i bet its going to be better now that we are bestfirends i cant wait

another thing that i cant wait for is my suprise lauren and arryn have been makeing a suprise for me ever since i was going to move but than dident and they said i could have it ladt sunday but it wasent done but lauren finaly took over and finished it and the worst part is that every one nose but me and i hate when that happens but i cant wait to see what it is!!!!

but ya thats how my birthday is going but i should get some sleep lots to do tomorow i will put pics up of my suprise when i get back from vancover <33333

Random<3333

birthday party!!!

omg i had the best birthday ever i love it!! my aunty tried to throw me a suprise b-day party at ruckers but the suprise dident work out i just have to many firends that cant keep secrets lol well it was so fun and evern though not alot of people came it was good i love it!!

how much longe can i stay

Where are you i feel so lost and alone and i want you to be there?she says i need to let you in but im scared i dont want to let you down or hurt you im sorry and i am trying but i just dont understand why? i felt there when i needed you the most and now i am lost and i need you i need you to help me find my self and this time i give my life to you

life

hey i know i havent posted in a long time and that alot of people dont look at my page cause there is notheing exiting on it but ya sorry adout that i will try to keep on it

im not sure how to right all of this and im realy not sure why people make bloges is it so they can make people feel sorry for them??or so they have a place to right down there feelings thoughts and dreams?? well if you think im feeling sorry form my self affter you read this im sorry i gess you just dont have to look at my blogs agian<3

so ya life is kinda a bummer right now i have to go back to my parents [woot woot]well if you all new my paents you wouldent be thinking the same thing as i am dont get me wrong i love my family to death!!BUT i hate the way they treat eachother and i know that its not the wost thing ever but to me it kinda is the worst thing in my eyes i hate how my dad thinks he can walk in and out of my our live and i love my dad to death but wen he yells at me and tells me i always hurt him i quetion on how much he realy loves me?? i wish my family could just all be happy and i wish my sister would OPEN her eyes and see hoe much we all love her and miss her but i dont think thats happenening anytime soon well im not sure how much i should say on here but wat ever?

somthing that is realy been upsetting me is god like i know hes realy an di totaly belive in him but some times i wonder how much pain he wants me to go through and alot of people are like hes teaching you somthin well right now learning is the last thing i want to be doin i just realy need him and it feels like hes dont give a rip you know wat i mean? well people say he will never give you more than you can hander but right now i feel like he donty evan no how much i can handle cause im adout ready to break


well my unkle is home and im adout to get sent to bed
but im sorry to you who think this is a bore but hey wat can i do

love
alysha